Today is my 31st birthday. Yes 31st, I’m getting old lol In person I look about 18 or 25. I can’t help that I have a baby face lol. Anyway by reading the title I know you are wondering why I’m so sad today. To be honest this has been the worse birthday since my mother died. I’ve always had trouble celebrating my birthday. Maybe because I feel like some people don’t put in effort to be here for me or when I plan something it doesn’t go how I pictured it. I was going to leave the house to do something by myself but my anxiety was at a ten. Instead I stayed home and locked myself in the house. I wasn’t in the mood to celebrate anymore. My depression and anxiety has been awful to me all day. It makes me feel like no one cares about me and I’m better off isolating myself. My friends and family been texting,calling and video chatting all day. Am I wrong for ignoring them or replying back in a dry text response? What is it about my birthday that has me in deep depression? Its suppose to be exciting and a joyful day…right?
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My dear, please celebrate your birthday and be thankful for you today.
The depths of depression can make it difficult sometimes to celebrate even the smallest of victories and your birthday is definitely a victory. Regardless of anyone around you, you yourself can celebrate. So please do because you deserve it. ❤ Happy Birthday. You'll have to tell me how 31 is because I'll be there in a little over a month.
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I didn’t get a chance to celebrate. I was so depressed and not in a good mood. Today me & my best friend are suppose to hang out. 31 is going to be amazing for the both of us. 🙂
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