Feeling Judged about my Mental Illness

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I was recently diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder. For the pass couple of weeks, I have been speaking about my mental illness. It has been therapeutic for me to share but why do I get this feeling of being judged by people? Strange…I know. I want to tell people about my self-harm and previous heavy drinking. My anxiety and depression won’t let me speak about my mental illness. It makes me feel like I will push people away and that scares me. Let me ask you this…Have you ever talked to someone about your mental illness and afterwards you feel a sense of anxiety because you don’t know how they will respond or act? Thinking about that doesn’t give me any comfort that its okay to talk about it because I’m afraid of feeling judged or people walking out of my life. Of course that is my depression talking and I have to learn to block it out. Talking about my mental illness is my way of healing and hoping to inspire people. I can’t let my anxiety or worry about about what people thing about me and my mental illness.