The Fear of Change

In my previous post I talked about stepping out of my comfort zone and how scary and uncomfortable it can be. I want to share how fear of change can be a bit overwhelming and scary. About three months ago I started a new job working as a cashier/customer service representative in a hardware store. It was a huge change for me because I came from being a waitress at a fast food place. Something that I was good at and use to doing since I was 17. Now that I’m 31, ready for growth and start making changes…it freaks me out. I believe it has a lot to do with my anxiety. I was going to quit on my third week of being there because I felt like this job wasn’t the right one for me. It is out of my element…I did’t like the feeling of being in a different environment, around different people and I don’t do well with change. Their were times when I had panic attacks, went to the restroom to hide & I would cry. I kept telling myself “I made a mistake leaving my previous job.” “I can’t do this.” “I’m not good enough.” Then I had to think…If I leave this job I let my fear (my anxiety) win and I can’t let that happen. I decided to stay & not give up. I think that was the best choice I made. Yes change can be scary but it can also be a good thing.