What is Life?!

For the pass couple of week I been struggling with my mental health. With feeling stress & overwhelmed with school & personal stuff that is going on in my life, its been hard one me mentally & physically. It has gotten to the point that my mind is in a dark place, I have these urges to self-harm & drink heavily again. My emotions are all over the place & its affecting my ability to function properly. Honestly, its scaring me & I really don’t want to be in this dark place. I feel like my depression & anxiety is this loud dark voice that won’t leave me alone. It seems like once I’m in my happy place & everything is okay…that’s when depression creeps up & talks to me so loud saying how I don’t deserve to be happy, I’m not strong or why don’t I end everything. Its so frustrating because most times I feel like I can’t be happy & sometimes I do believe that voice. I always ask myself “What is Life?” What I mean is…Do I have strength to continue to keep going? The answer is yes I do! I have to keep fighting & tell myself that everything is going to be okay. I’m more than my mental illness & it doesn’t define who I am. I will overcome this battle.