Social Anxiety and Drinking

I been dealing with Social Anxiety all my life but I didn’t noticed it until I became and adult. Social Anxiety makes me feel uncomfortable,awkward,alone and shy to the point I want to leave the event early. I don’t talk as much especially to people I don’t know. When I meet new people I feel that its hard for me to be myself…I have to be someone else for people to like me. I feel out of place…I don’t belong. I can’t go out in large groups without having a panic attack. I get this overwhelming feeling of being trapped in a small box with a lot of noise and people. I can’t breathe…I can’t move my body. Then theirs this voice telling to drink to feel better “Be Myself” again. I been sober for a year and six months. I can’t go back to how I was before. Drinking only makes the numbness temporary…it won’t fix the problem.