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Depression: A feeling of severe despondency and dejection.
My definition of depression means darkness, drowning in water, falling in a deep black hole. When I’m in deep depression I start having these dark thoughts of not wanting to be here. It causes me not to be able to think and function properly. I feel alone and trapped. Having depression makes me feel numb, emotionless, or not knowing how to feel. I get physically and mentally tired. Its emotionally draining and doesn’t make me feel happy because of all the overwhelming emotions and thoughts. Its absolutely frustrating when I’m in my happy zone and depression creeps up on me out of nowhere. It makes me feel like I’m not allowed to be happy. My mind always shifts to a dark place at night. I have nightmares, I want to be alone and this loud voice feeding me things I don’t want to hear. I don’t like when my mind is silent. I wish it would go away.
The Road to Recovery 
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