Mental Health and Work

I want to talk about how my mental health affects my ability to function at work. I only work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Of course working three days out of the week doesn’t seem that bad, but it can be exhausting. I feel like its too much. Before going back to work, I start to have a panic attack. Leaving my safe place (my home) and going to a different environment triggers me into panic mode. My job can be overwhelming sometimes, especially during stressful situations. The thoughts of going back to work makes me sick to the stomach. Everything that is going on in my personal life, working part-time and going to school full-time it can be stressful. I get depressed and my anxiety goes through the roof. It affects my ability to focus on customers needs and be able to do my job correctly. When I’m at work I don’t talk as much. I get in deep depression, my mind is somewhere else, like in a dark place…zone out. I tend to lash out at my coworkers and customers. I don’t think its right and its not fair to them because they didn’t do anything wrong. Some times I think its best for me to stay quite. In the mist of a busy day, I have to deal with rude, demanding, unhappy customers.

So, I came up with some coping strategies that helps me to get through my work day:

  1. I talked to my department manager to let her know about what was going on with me mentally and how it affects my ability to work. It was important for me to make sure that she has a clear understanding and be aware about my mental health. Come with a plan to help, me have a stress free working environment.
  2. When I’m feeling overwhelmed or having a panic attack, I ask to take a 15 minute break to calm down.
  3. I always have water with me. To keep me hydrated throughout the day.
  4. Breathing techniques to help me relax. I listen to music or read a book during my lunch break.

What would you like to add?

Late Night Thoughts part 5.

My depression has been draining me mentally. Its been hard for me to function at school and at work. I find it difficult to do easy task. Like taking a shower, cooking , doing homework and cleaning. When I’m in deep depression, I want to be alone instead of being around people. I have been so emotional and try my best to fake it so people wouldn’t ask questions. I feel like a toxic mess and unwanted, but that is not true. I’m stronger than my depression. Its okay to not be okay. Its important to take care of myself and be kind to my mind.

Late Night Thoughts pt.4

Sometimes I feel like I’m not enough. Sometimes I feel like I’m too much. I’ve always had this feeling thay I’m too toxic for people. My anxiety and depression makes me feel and think people don’t want to be around me because I’m too emotional or I’m a burden to them. What do I do? I end up pushing them away because I start to believe what that voice is saying is true.

Mental Health Check-In

Hello everyone, welcome back to my blog. I hope everyone is doing well. I haven’t posted anything on here in months. I been busy since the semester started back in August and also working. I wanted to share with you guys about how I been with my mental health. To be honest its been its been an emotional roller coaster. My depression and anxiety has gotten worse. Trying to balance school, work and my personal life, its been difficult for me. These couple of weeks was challenging. I’ve had multiple mental breakdowns that has caused me to shutdown and want to be alone. I’m trying my best to get through this battle, but its so hard. I just need to push the pause button to figure out what I need to do to get myself together mentally.

Social Media and Mental Health

“Social media is becoming too much for me.”

!Possible Trigger Warning!

Recently, I had deleted Facebook from my phone and I spend limited time on my personal Instagram page. I know some people my think that having social media is not that bad but, for me it’s really mentally and physically exhausting. As I’m scrolling down my timeline on Facebook and Instagram. I find myself comparing my life to others. This may sound silly but sometimes I feel like the people have on social media their life is better than mine. Seeing certain post triggers my depression and anxiety. So I thought it would be best to take a break from social media and focus more on my mental health. I did some research about how can social media make a negative impact on people’s mental health.

I came across some important reasons how social media affects mental health…

Comparing yourself to others.

Certain post triggers you, causes depression and anxiety.

Exhausting.

Loneliness.

Self-harm.

Suicidal thoughts.

New research reveals how social media platforms like Facebook can affect your mental health. Studies have linked the use of social media to depression, anxiety, poorer sleep quality, lower self-esteem, inattention and hyperactivity often in teens and adolescents.

Negative Aspects:

Inadequacy about you life or appearance: Even if you know that images you’re viewing on social media are manipulated, they can still make you feel insecure about how you look or what’s going on in your own life.

Fear of missing out (FOMO): Social media sites such as Facebook and Instagram seem to exacerbate feelings that others are having more fun or living better lives that you are. The idea that you’re missing out on certain things can impact your self-esteem, trigger anxiety, and fuel even greater social media use.

Depression and anxiety: We need to face-to-face contact to be mentally healthy. Nothing reduces stress and boosts your mood faster or more effectively than eye-to eye contact with someone who cares about you. The more you prioritize social media interaction over in-person relationship, the more you’re at risk for developing or exacerbating mood disorders such as anxiety and depression.

Self-absorption: Sharing endless selfies and all your innermost thoughts on social media can create an unhealthy self-contentedness and distance you from real-life connections.

Excessive Social Media use can create a Negative, Self-Perpetuating Cycle:

  1. When you feel lonely, depressed, anxious, or stressed. You use social media more often-as a way to relieve boredom or feel connected to others.
  2. Using social media more often, though increases FOMO and feelings of inadequacy, dissatisfaction, and isolation.
  3. In turn, these feelings negatively affect your mood and worsen symptoms of depression, anxiety, and stress.
  4. These worsening symptoms causes you to use social media even more, and so the downward spiral continues.

Indicators that social media may be adversely affecting your mental health:

Spending more time on Social Media than with Real World Friends: Even if you’re out with friends, you still feel the need to constantly check social media, often driven by feelings that others may be having more fun than you.

Being distracted at school or work: You feel pressure to post regular content about yourself, get comments or likes on your posts, or respond quickly and enthusiastically to friends’ posts.

Its okay to have social media but, I try not to get lost in it. Meaning not spending so much of my time scrolling through Facebook or Instagram. When I feel like its affecting my mental health, I take a break or limit my time on social media. Its important to take some time to reflect and do some self-care.

Do you feel like social media is bad for mental health?


Focusing on my Mental Health.

Since this is Mental Health Awareness Month, I want to talk about how important it is to take care of your mental health. Recently, I was in a bad place. My depression and anxiety was out of control. I felt like I was losing myself as a person.

It was the last week of the Spring semester, I had finals that week and Mother’s Day weekend was coming up (Mother’s Day has always been a tough holiday for me since my mom passed). I was feeling stressed out and overwhelmed with everything that was going on in my life at that time. I was in deep depression. I would always put myself put things and people before me. I decided it would be best to not attend any classes this summer like I had planned. Its best to take a break until August (fall semester) and focus more on my mental health. I’m learning how important it is to put myself first and worry about other things later. I got so busy with school, work, and everything that was going on around me, I forgot about CHANEL. Having this time off would be a great opportunity to get my mental health back on track. Meaning loving myself more and getting in touch with my emotions. I have to start doing what’s best for me.

What does focusing on your mental health looks like to you?

The Challenges of being Sober

Its been a year and seven months since I decided to stop drinking alcohol . The reason why I choose to be sober, I wasn’t happy with the person I was while being drunk. I was using alcohol as a coping strategy to deal with my depression and anxiety. It’s been a long journey and I am proud of myself for making it this far, but I am battling some challenges of trying to stay sober. Going out with my friends I feel out of place because I’m the only one not drinking. For some reason it causes me to have anxiety. In order for me to have fun and be myself I have to be drunk. When I’m in deep depression and in stressful situations I crave alcohol. I need it to feel numb, to forget about my problems. I am more open about being sober, but I also receive negative and positive responses from people. Some are supportive and some don’t have faith that I can keep going because I was a heavy drinker. What’s been helping me is talking to my counselor. She has taught me without the alcohol I am coping better with my emotions, learning its okay not to drink to have fun and feel more comfortable with myself . I’m a fighter and believe that I can make it through this.

Social Anxiety and Drinking

I been dealing with Social Anxiety all my life but I didn’t noticed it until I became and adult. Social Anxiety makes me feel uncomfortable,awkward,alone and shy to the point I want to leave the event early. I don’t talk as much especially to people I don’t know. When I meet new people I feel that its hard for me to be myself…I have to be someone else for people to like me. I feel out of place…I don’t belong. I can’t go out in large groups without having a panic attack. I get this overwhelming feeling of being trapped in a small box with a lot of noise and people. I can’t breathe…I can’t move my body. Then theirs this voice telling to drink to feel better “Be Myself” again. I been sober for a year and six months. I can’t go back to how I was before. Drinking only makes the numbness temporary…it won’t fix the problem.

The Pressure of being Perfect

I have to be PERFECT.

Throughout my life I felt like I had to be perfect at everything. When it comes to school I can’t make any bad grades & if I did I would beat myself up… thinking I am a complete failure. I guess you can call me a perfectionist. This is my last year in college. I will be getting my associates degree in psychology in December of this year. Exciting right?! but I haven’t been feeling so happy. I been so stressed out, overwhelmed & my anxiety has been so bad since this semester started. I was talking to someone on social media & we were discussing about how our last year has been good so far. You are probably wondering why…I’m suppose to be happy. Yea I am but lately I been feeling a lot of pressure. I tell myself “Okay Chanel this is you last year. Everything has to be perfect & on point. My grades & GPA have to be perfect & I have to stay on the honor society. IT MUST BE PERFECT!” But does it really matter? Do I have to be perfect at everything? No I don’t. Yes grades do matter & I’m pretty sure other universities will look at that but that won’t keep me from going further into my education. I had to think & realize that my grades doesn’t define my intelligence. If I pass a class with a C or if I get dropped from the honor society because of my GPA. ITS OKAY! That doesn’t make me a bad student. All I want is to graduate & get my degree. I now realize that I have to stop putting so much pressure on myself & its okay not to be perfect.

What is Life?!

Everyday I’m fighting a battle.

For the pass couple of week I been struggling with my mental health. With feeling stress & overwhelmed with school & personal stuff that is going on in my life, its been hard one me mentally & physically. It has gotten to the point that my mind is in a dark place, I have these urges to self-harm & drink heavily again. My emotions are all over the place & its affecting my ability to function properly. Honestly, its scaring me & I really don’t want to be in this dark place. I feel like my depression & anxiety is this loud dark voice that won’t leave me alone. It seems like once I’m in my happy place & everything is okay…that’s when depression creeps up & talks to me so loud saying how I don’t deserve to be happy, I’m not strong or why don’t I end everything. Its so frustrating because most times I feel like I can’t be happy & sometimes I do believe that voice. I always ask myself “What is Life?” What I mean is…Do I have strength to continue to keep going? The answer is yes I do! I have to keep fighting & tell myself that everything is going to be okay. I’m more than my mental illness & it doesn’t define who I am. I will overcome this battle.

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