Tag: emotions

The Diary of Depression and Anxiety

Where do I begin?

Battling depression and anxiety is overwhelming. Depression feels like a dark, rainy cloud hovering over me. A person following me telling me how worthless I am and nobody wants me here.

I was told that anxiety is suppose to keep me safe from harm and danger. But sometimes I feel like it keep me isolated from the things I want to do in my life.

The voices are so loud and scary. What can I do? Then a powerful voice of God tells me to pray. I say “Oh God!! Take this pain and dark thoughts away from me!” I keep talking to God and crying out to him. All of the sudden I feel his peace, love and protection. He let me know that he is aways with me to fight through this battle of depression and anxiety. I am strong enough to get through this. Philippians 4:13 says I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

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Save Me

Most days I don’t want to live in this toxic mind. The pain,the heartache is breaking me into pieces. I try to scream for help but no sound would come out. What should I do? Sometimes I don’t know anymore. I’m drowning in my own emotions,my depression & my anxiety. I need to swim back to the surface so I can breathe.

Can you save me?

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Trapped in a Box

The person I was ten months ago is trapped in a box.

My old self wants to be free but I won’t let her out. The old me was a woman who drunk herself to death in order to feel numb. She didn’t want to be aware of her surroundings or feelings. Drinking heavily made her not want to face her own demons. The old self was more “happier” when she was free but, deep down inside she was slowly dying because of the careless stuff she did. She reminds me of how happier I was & it would be best to her her loose but I can’t. If I do…well, it wouldn’t be a good thing. I didn’t like myself when I was her & I don’t want to go back to that dark place.

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